I Am Not

I have been a volunteer for nearly 10 years through my church with foster children. I love what I do and working with these kids. However, there have been times that our Director has treated me like his “whipping post”. He personally used that term and said, “Everyone needs a whipping post.” Sometimes we banter […]

The Mistake I Made..

I just watched this video and it hit a little harder than I think it normally would have… Last night I had my first dream in years of G. He wanted me as much as I wanted him. When will my mind stop playing tricks on my heart? Or is it my heart playing tricks […]

Abandoned Friendships

Have you ever had a friend that has walked away from you? One that has purposefully destroyed your friendship? Someone that has burned that bridge between the two of you? And then come back as if there was never any hurt between the two of you? I have had three… that’s right, you read it… 3 best friends, […]

No Secrets | No Walls

I’m more of a “chapter 10 and on” type of person. I don’t like to talk much about my home life growing up and there are even parts in between I don’t really talk about. With G, there were no secrets. He knew everything about me. I knew everything about him. That means something, right? […]

Joy

I love how when you’re complaining, you are still so happy! …mmm, that’s probably the last thing I ever expected to hear someone say to me. In the last year, I have heard one of my friends tell me that they were blessed to have me in their life because I always bring joy into the […]

Phone Calls Every Day

When you’re not in an official relationship, I don’t know if talking on the phone every single day is proper. I use the word proper because honestly… I don’t know what else to call it. If you are woo-ing me and actually have intentions of putting a ring on my finger, that’s still a little much if […]

Date 3 and 11 hours

Yes, you read that correctly. Date 3 with A lasted about 11 hours. It was right before Christmas and he was supposed to drive up to San Francisco to spend the holiday with his family and daughter that day. I texted him that morning to see if he had left yet and he said that […]

Good Morning and Good Night

Two phrases that you text or say to someone every day show you care for them… When I rolled over in the morning and looked at my phone sophomore year after meeting G, it would say “Good Morning 😉 “. He knew when I woke up and had classes. We would start texting immediately from that […]

His First Kiss

By 24 J had never kissed a girl or at least that’s what he told me. Let me start this from the beginning… Due to my impeccable taste to men, I decided to not get serious too quickly about any guy. I wanted something slow and fun! He wanted a wife. We somehow missed this in our communications… […]