I Am Not

I have been a volunteer for nearly 10 years through my church with foster children. I love what I do and working with these kids. However, there have been times that our Director has treated me like his “whipping post”. He personally used that term and said, “Everyone needs a whipping post.” Sometimes we banter […]

The Mistake I Made..

I just watched this video and it hit a little harder than I think it normally would have… Last night I had my first dream in years of G. He wanted me as much as I wanted him. When will my mind stop playing tricks on my heart? Or is it my heart playing tricks […]

Shh… Let Me Think

I’m sitting here at my “small group”, a term in church to define a group of people meeting to discuss the Bible and life, and we were told to take 20 minutes to journal or spend time reading the Bible. Well, this is my journal basically. I’m the most honest I’ve ever been here than […]

Abandoned Friendships

Have you ever had a friend that has walked away from you? One that has purposefully destroyed your friendship? Someone that has burned that bridge between the two of you? And then come back as if there was never any hurt between the two of you? I have had three… that’s right, you read it… 3 best friends, […]

Birth Order

I’ve been learning a lot about myself in the past few weeks. My current job situation is none and I’m educating myself on a new career! In that, I read a book called “The Birth Order Book” by Dr. Kevin Leman. Have you ever wondered about why you are the way you are and how […]

Stuck Like Glue

So this is a funny story I just learned that happened 2 years ago, just after J and I broke up. J had been volunteering with me at church while we dated and was debating about going to camp with us still when we broke up. I told him, “Pray about it. You should not go […]

No Secrets | No Walls

I’m more of a “chapter 10 and on” type of person. I don’t like to talk much about my home life growing up and there are even parts in between I don’t really talk about. With G, there were no secrets. He knew everything about me. I knew everything about him. That means something, right? […]


I love how when you’re complaining, you are still so happy! …mmm, that’s probably the last thing I ever expected to hear someone say to me. In the last year, I have heard one of my friends tell me that they were blessed to have me in their life because I always bring joy into the […]